They Are Not In My Shoes

I never talked about my problems to people anymore. I never even cried in front of people anymore. They say if I do then it'll make me feel better. But trust me, I already passed that. It doesn't do anything for me anymore now. 
Talking to people is useless for me. As much as I appreciate it, but they're not me. They're not in my shoes. They don't feel what I feel. No matter how hard I try to describe it, they'll never really understand. 
I hope my therapist doesn't read this. But what the hell, he already knows I'm dead inside. 


 

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